A little over a year ago, I was furloughed from my job as a program manager. I had wanted to write fiction for a long time. After work, I just couldn’t manage to sit down and write. When I suddenly lost my job when COVID struck, I decided I needed to do something constructive. I decided to write. I’m one of those people who obsess once I decide to do something.
When I started Fan Mail, I have to admit that I didn’t know exactly where the story would lead me. I knew I wanted my heroine to be sexually empowered. I wanted her to take the lead and fulfill the dreams of her partner. That’s all I had when I started. Then, I sat down and started to write. I wrote the first three chapters over and over. Finally, it had the right feel.
One night I dreamt of my characters. I saw the story begin to unfold. It was a hot and fun dream. I woke up aroused and ready to write. The rest of the story almost wrote itself. Then, after the first 100 pages, I sent them to a friend who is an author. She sent back extensive notes. I sent her a cheerful thank-you note, but inside I wanted to cry. I watched TV the rest of the day. I didn’t dream that night.
The next day I went through her notes. They made a lot of sense. It took three days to go back and fix the story. It was much better. I was excited again and started writing new pages. Within a week, I finished the book. I spent over a month editing and rewriting. Finally, I decided to send it out into the world.
Fan Mail has a lot of sex in it. I love to write sex scenes! Wow, the pages just fly when I am writing about sex. When I reread and edited, at least half of them got cut. It was too much! In the first draft, I actually had Leslie spank Steve. It was fun to write but didn’t really advance the story. I also feel that it would be too kinky to add if I wanted a general audience.
After all, Fan Mail isn’t about kinky sex. It’s about a woman who discovers her feminine power and uses it for good. It’s also about the horrible sexist politics of show business. Mostly, I wanted it to be fun to read. I hope it is.